”When we ignore the signs, we end up at the wrong destination.”-TheSingleWoman
Today, I am facing one of the most difficult hurdle to achieving my dream. I am already feeling the pressure, nervous, I am thinking of backing out.
Everyone has a high expectation on me. People are calling me THAT title already-a title that I have yet to earn. I have already filed my petition. Still, that tiny voice telling me to shelve it for next year to have a longer preparation kept on talking inside my head.
I have received several signs already but those signs can be viewed in two ways. These are the signs:
1. The hazard of my profession has finally caught up with me. I have one annoying SLAPP suit. I have to attach a ctc of it on my petition. Hassle.
2. Birth certificate problems.
3. Had problems with my transcript (now solved)
4. Too busy at work means less time reading.
These signs could either mean God does not want me to push through with my plan this year for these problems will sort things out by next year or God is testing me how far will I go, how far will I fight for my dream. Its looking at the glass half empty or half full.
Before entering law school, I had the same problem. When I passed the exam at my dream school, I got terribly sick, almost died and my doctors (11 of them) told me to rest for about a year or two. When I am alive and kickin’ again, I took another entrance exam at another law school and passed but I had an accident, had to undergo eye surgery. Still, I did not gave up my plan. I waited for another year and I got in. After 5 years, I finished it.
Now, am facing the same dilemma-half empty or half full? To take or not to take?
Retreat is not always a sign of cowardice. It could mean you are taking a step back to get a better position. But life is about taking chances as well and the best thing about taking chances is the possibility of taking you to places you could only imagine.
Should I be too cautious or be a risk taker?
With the step am taking now, it is the latter. I am following my heart. I want to shut that tiny voice of logic away but I cant though am ignoring it….Am hoping that am making the right decision. What I want is getting into my destination…Keeping my Fingers crossed…
Filed under: Blabbers Tagged: | Bar exam, half empty, life
Don’t back out..your almost there… it would be to late to give up now. I’m a lawyer wannabe, (LLB 2nd year) and I’ve been contemplating of giving up this dream i’ve had since third grade… everything seems to be against me, the pressures of working two jobs, health reasons, couldn’t read enough, i experienced burn out last year, etc… but i don’t think i’m gonna quit on this thing…i figured since i went to the extent of starting this mess might as will finish it. my theme song now is Stan Walker’s version of Myly Cyrus’s The Climb… just to get me through. I don’t want to regret nor be stuck in what-ifs and should’ve-beens in the future. I pray all will end will for you..
hi. thanks. that’s so inspiring. i’ve decided that no matter what, i will do this. i am also preparing myself for whatever the outcome will be. Lecturer from review class told us that we’re so close, there’s no more reason to stop. He said we should consider it our time to shine. Am looking at the glass half full. Good luck to you too and I will also pray that we will soon meet with our dream “atty.” title before our names. ^__^